I Love New Projects

My friend Naomi has commissioned another drawing from me. This time, she wants a more realistic drawing. YAY! I am slightly nervous, because I have never done a realistic drawing for anyone before. She has always asked for cartoons. I hope I do her idea justice.

The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

"Everything will be alright in the end. If it is not alright, then it is not the end."

I love this quote. It is a quote that gives hope. It is similar to the verse that says that all things work out for the good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose. (I didn't put quotation marks on that because I am too lazy to make sure I wrote it correctly)

Three Jobs? Am I crazy?

Probably. I just interviewed at Mt. Bachelor, and I have orientation for the school district on November 13th. So if I get the job at Mt. Bachelor, I will have three jobs. Of course, I doubt that I will be taking many days at the school district, since I will eventually be working full-time or more between both jobs. I hope I can handle it all. If I don't get the job at Mt. Bachelor, I will only be mildly disappointed, because it is a good job, but I do already have one. Personally if I had a choice between the two, I would choose Bachelor, because it is a longer season, and something fun to put on my resume. On the flip side, Kohl's is warm and dry, and has a potential to become more than a seasonal job. I guess we just have to wait.

I Finally Got Hired

Know what the best feeling is? Acceptance. Even better? Getting paid for it....or getting a hug and a kiss from someone you care about, but mostly the part where I get hired at Kohl's. :) I still have an interview on Saturday with Mt. Bachelor. I will be asking them how they feel about me having a second job, and how flexible they are with schedules. If that works out, then I will have two jobs to keep me busy.

Things I Love

1. Dancing
2. The smell of rain
3. Grass
4. Going swimming
5. Horseback riding
6. Doing something fast
7. Doing something new
8. Doing something that not very many people (or at least my friends) do
9. Proper grammar
10. Reading
11. Kissing
12. Snuggling up under warm blankets
13. Feeling pretty
14. Wrestling
15. Singing and dancing badly with friends
16. Drawing
17. Knowing all the words to a song
18. Being silly
19. Mischievous pranks
20. Tickles (don't tell)
21. Being fake mad at someone
22. Thinking of someone that makes you smile
23. Traveling on my own time schedule
24. Wandering
25. Exploring
26. Accomplishing something difficult
27. Being barefoot
28. FOOD
29. Making people laugh
30. Learning a new skill
31. Talking to my dog as though she is human
32. Working hard
33. Sunny days
34. Planker's BLTA
35. Lists
36. Making hypothetical plans
37. Watching the sunset
38. Holding hands
39. Going to a scary movie with a guy friend, so that he can "protect" you
40. Surprises
41. Blogging (even if no one reads it)/ writing
42. Finding new things and people to love

Shevlin Park

I went with Victor to Shevlin Park yesterday. I can't decide if I should write more about how much fun he is to be friends with, or if I should write about the park. Well, the park was beautiful. We walked a ways and found a nice place near the river to lay my blanket down. We spread out our food and had a nice lunch right there. I have always wanted to have a picnic lunch like that. He took lots of pictures of the scenery, and a few of us together. He even posted a very couple-y picture of us to Facebook. It was so warm, that I almost felt silly in a long sleeved shirt. We did some balancing on logs over the river, and snuggled. It was a very good day. Hopefully, we will be hanging out tomorrow or Tuesday.

I Love

I have a very high capacity for love. I do. It's a blessing and a curse. For those that just need a little love in their lives, I am the one that will sit and listen without judging. If you need a hug, I will hug you no matter who you are. The problem comes into play when I need a little love. I go overboard. I love everyone. I don't discern. Of course I have a "perfect guy list" in my head, but as log as someone is not a jackass, and seems to like me, I will like them back. There are a FEW things that I will not accept. For example, if a guy is really old, I won't be attracted to them. Same with really young. If you are overly aggressive, nope. If you smoke or if you drink excessively, I will not be attracted to you. If you are a wimp, I probably won't like you. If you are a snob, I definitely won't like you. I think that's it. As long as you are polite, down to earth, somewhat wholesome, and at least sort of in my age range, then I will probably fall for you whether I want to or not. If you have any features that are on my mental list, then I really have no chance.

Anyway. Having a large love tank is a blessing most of the time.

Church

I finally went back to church. No panic attack. Yay! I was really tired though. I felt bad because I was fighting sleep the whole time. I was in the middle of breakfast when my dad came downstairs and I had about two minutes to get ready. Luckily I can get ready in very little time. Church always feels like forever. Worship started at 10:30. Preaching started at 11:00 and wasn't over until after noon. It was about an hour long, but it felt longer.

Sunday notes.  Encouragement.

Text: Matthew 6:9-15

9 Though we speak in this way, yet in your case, beloved, we feel sure of better things—things that belong to salvation. 10 For God is not unjust so as to overlook your work and the love that you have shown for his name in serving the saints, as you still do. 11 And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, 12 so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises. 13 For when God made a promise to Abraham, since he had no one greater by whom to swear, he swore by himself, 14 saying, “Surely I will bless you and multiply you.” 15 And thus Abraham, having patiently waited, obtained the promise.

We must train to avoid discouragement. A call for maturity.expectations for stages of maturity and development in Christ.

2 Peter 1:3-8

. 3 His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, 4 by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire. 5 For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, 6 and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, 7 and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. 8 For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

The order is important

Faith

Virtue

Knowledge

Self-control

Steadfastness

Godliness

Brotherly affection

Love

1 Peter 1: 9

For whoever lacks these qualities is so nearsighted that he is blind, having forgotten that he was cleansed from his former sins.

Keep these qualities sharp








I know most people don't care about my notes, but I am really proud of myself today for going and (trying to) paying attention. After church, my family and I went to a sushi place for lunch. The funny thing is, that was the third time I have been to a sushi place this week. Tomorrow, I am excited to go hang out with Victor again, because he is taking me to where he works, and we are going SWIMMING IN FALL! Because of this, he is now my favorite person. Okay, not really, but I am super happy and excited.

Palina Falls

My mom and I have been there before, and it is beautiful! We went with a friend and her dog yesterday. I don't really like my mom's friend, but I tried not to let that get me down.

New Friend

OMG!!!! I just met a friend from craigslist. I know that sounds super shady, but it turned out really nice. He has a strong Spanish accent, but I don't have much trouble understanding him. After all, I grew up with quite a few friends that had really strong Spanish accents. I am more than used to it. Besides, maybe he can help me with my Spanish? Besides, he is super gorgeous. That makes up for any frustration I might have over his accent. LOL He lives half an hour away, but says that he comes to Bend a few times a week, so we could hang out when he is here. Or whenever. He doesn't seem to have a problem with the drive. He has a great sense of humor, and we get along very well. He is actually a lot like me in several ways. He is asexual (which for him means that he doesn't care about sex). He isn't into drugs or alcohol. He is funny, but socially awkward. According to him, he can't dance, but we shall see. He also loves to be active outside. :) I am so comfortable with him. Although there is some inevitable sexual tension, I feel like I can trust him not to push my comfort level too much. I really like that. More next week when we get together again, but probably on my other blog. :p

My Emotional Rollercoaster

I have honestly been feeling down lately. I am trying to rectify that, but for today, I am going to post an experience that makes me happy.


While I was still living in San Diego, I volunteered at DCS (Deaf Community Services). I helped the receptionist with clients that came through the door. The job was challenging, but I did okay. I think I went in once a week. I answered the VP (video phone) and the telephone. I helped clients fill out forms, and I informed counselors when their appointments showed up. It was a very happy, challenging, fulfilling time in my life.

College

The admission process with WGU is going well. I did have a small snag with financial aid, but I hope to have that resolved by the end of the week. I still have three weeks to get everything in order, so I am having a rare moment of calmness. Normally, I would be stressing out that things aren't already 100% taken care of and that I can't do all the steps in one day. I don't feel like that. Even though, I still don't have a job, I feel like everything with college is perfect as of right now. I don't know what to do about a job. It's hard to think about.

I noticed that my posts are kind of blah. Technically, they do follow the rules of putting something positive everyday (when I remember), but I feel as though they aren't what I envisioned it to be.

Independence

My parents went away for the weekend. They aren't coming back until Tuesday. They left the truck, and twenty bucks, and a few really cool dinners.

As I have said before, I have been on my own twice. The first time half counted because I had someone making meals for me. I guess, if I count living with Walter and his mom, three times. I love being on my own. My parents leaving only reinforces that fact. I might want a big dog to keep me company, but no humans. I know that once I can afford to live in a place by myself and pay all the bills on my own, I will be extremely happy. I know that my parents would say that I am not responsible enough to take care of a home, but what they don't know is that I only slack on the chores when they are here. When I am on my own, I am far less lazy. I take the dog on a walk, I dress myself appropriately for my age, I keep the house clean, and I eat healthy food. When other people are around, I don't want to do anything at all. It might be a stubborn/ pride thing, but it is 100% true. It happens consistently.

I am going to love this weekend!

Trying to be positive

can be very challenging. I have had two boyfriends in my past that "count". My first relationship and the one before my most recent. Aside from them, I have had several men with which I had a relationship lasting a month or less. They don't "count". Today, I will focus on the two that make me smile the most. My first, with Sevan, was sickly sweet and mostly experimental. We never did "it", but we did have our romantic moments. Eventually, we realized that our differences made us incompatible, and parted ways. The second relationship was with Sgt. Connor Jennings of the Marine Corp. Our relationship was not that long, but it was my version of ideal. He was a leader, a gentleman, and had all of the personality traits that I was looking for in a man. Unfortunately, he had to move to the east coast. He made the choice to break up with me, to save us from growing apart. It killed both of us to do it, and we both bawled our eyes out like babies, but he left. Since then, I was in a short term relationship with a guy from the air force. He was ok. Nothing really special, and had several big flaws. When he moved (damn military), I was upset for a few minutes, and then I moved on. I am still not over Connor however.


My whole reason for posting this was to point out that I have been in loving relationships, and that I am attractive to the opposite sex in some regard.

Adaptablility

As much as I hate being told that something I planned for did not work out the way I wanted, I have found that my personality lets me move on pretty quickly. for example, I was denied financial aid. I found out how I could pay for school. I also decided to do online schooling as opposed to on campus school. It is cheaper and allows me more freedom to live where I want and get a full time job, if I want.  This is how I will succeed in life; by being adaptable. I do tend to get depressed by bad news, but I think I bounce back fairly rapidly. It takes me a week at most to assimilate big news, and decide on a course of action. It makes me strong.